10 March 2006



I can admit that I am an emotion person. It is something that I have come to terms with, sort of. I can even admit to having bouts of sadness, okay, depression, every now and again. The usual bouts only last a few day, and nobody can tell because I don't stop laughing during the whole thing. Yes, my cackle. If you have been in the same room as me, you know what I am talking abut. But things are getting ridiculous these days. I don't really have much to complain about, my life is going well. I am back into school, friends are in from out of town, I'm on spring break, which means I will be constantly flashing and yelling. Such a lovely boy-o-boy, goodness gracious, such fun.

I should be gleeful. Overwhelmed with good cheer. The thing that is really going on? The world seems so sad to me right now. I look around and everyone's face makes me want to cry. Things that I found hysterical before are just lonely and depressing now. It is weird, it is creepy, it is not a bowl of cherries. I think somewhere along the way, through one of life's many obstacles, my heart got snagged and tore. SEE! Do you see what I mean! Bullshit like that is coming out of my mouth/fingers. It is disturbing. I do not want to be this sad and morbid. I find it boring, I want to punch myself in the eye, I want to push my own face in a puddle. I want out.

I was daydreaming the other day that I would get kicked out of school. I had planned to just disappear. The fantasy became so intense that I even started packing my bag and finding a home for my kats. I can tell spring is coming because I have no desire to be standing still anymore.


truly,
the recess bandit.

11 comments:

recess bandit said...

Please notice the facial expresion on the person in the broken-heart diagram.

Anonymous said...

I like it.Spring does weird things to people.So does heartbreak,or those oh so fun let downs.
Don't worry,these things do go away while you not looking.So don't look.m

Anonymous said...

what happened?
M

Anonymous said...

oh my god you have to look at this
http://drsketchy.blogspot.com/

recess bandit said...

Yet another reason to pack up and go elsewhere. I think a road trip in in order.

tifilis said...

Hey, there's no hope that a cross country road trip might be on the agenda is there?

Anonymous said...

Your coming to cape breton with me.Ne its final.
You'll meet the country boygirl of your dreams.MMspagetti arms with grass stains.

recess bandit said...

I would love to go to Cape Breton with you. When do we go? Where will we stay? Who are you? Is this the crazy siamese lady?

recess bandit said...

Spagetti arms and grass stains? Poetic much? Such a lovely thought.

answer-man said...

ps I'm having a little trouble sending comments so if I do it twice please excuse me and I apologize.

Anonymous said...

Yes its me.I'm a cat lady.Sigh-everyone said this would happen.That or I would be a soccor mom.
I have friends there who live by the ocean.
Now-a vehicle.